the empty heart

my heart had been empty
for so long
without reason

this make my life
feel empty
tired till
i can't feel the heart pumping

from the beginning
I try to fill it by reading books
by listening music
by crazying eating
or
by shopping

but all of this is useless
what can i fill it with

Blood?
meat?
or others....

I want a fulfill heart
to concentrate with my studies
to enjoy my life