REASON behind

Many people thought that
I love drinking alcohol
or they categorise me as alcoholic

but no one know the reason behind
or some might think this is my excuses

I love the feeling of getting high
but not too over
sometime I feel that when I get a little bit high
then only can see truly myself

one might lost their own indentity in life
lost the sincere side of their own

welcome back or find back the truly of yourself
once in awhile
might be a good way to
discover what you think

Life is too tired
to be every character that you should be
such as
be a student
be a daughter
be a citizen

one might carry a lot of character
soon after long time
we might lost our own character
what or which character should we be??