将会被遗忘的秘密

有个秘密
无意间被一个人发现了

重来没想过会有人知道
是我的表情
还是我的行为
出卖了我

但是
那个秘密
将会是永远埋在心里最深的地方

不想去挖掘
或许
我会慢慢的忘记
那会是更好毁灭这秘密的方法

就让它随风而去～～～

T-junction

Standing at a directionless T-junction
no matter turn left or right
is such a big decision for me

Continue study
or step out to reality
time never stop while you making your decision

tick tot tick tot
the time past like an open tap
After half year
of being a waitress
Changing from time of full with lab work
till full with schedule of work

Now
I'm Back
Although lot of precious memory in Adelaide
but
one day I have to let go
everything start from beginning

I wish everything back to path
and get a stable life style

searching for the next pathway of my life~~~

Evil March

I wondering why
bad thing always happened on March
since the day I graduated from high school

I always had bad time, emotion and health
on MARCH
is this a curses ???

As I mention before
I hate the world when I don't feel belonging
insecure feeling making me mad

when a brunch of friend staying to close for some time
then the sudden distance
make me feel empty
that's why I have those feeling
last time I able to stand the loneliness
but I don't think I able to withstand it

I think I should persuade myself to stay stronger
no one able to stand or stay by my side for forever
even best friend will have their own life

Believe in yourself ,
You able to get through every tiny obstacle that block you
from being a better person
Never give up
there surely someone that support you silently........

Am I doing the right thing??

I start to wonder
am I doing the right thing

I decide not to back hometown
and staying in Adelaide
for
"unimportant stuff
or something unrelated to my future"

Family member may said I should doing something
more precious
but
I am Happy with my life now
free and easy yet relax

Although
is a bit tired after whole day of standing
but
I get something that make me happier
from it

Is another feeling of successful
although is nothing related
but I experience something others
that might not get from the official work

I getting more in love to Adelaide
how am I gonna leave this lovely city
and also the beloved friends over here.....
they accompany the every lonely time of mine
the happiest in working on every stuff

我终于毕业了

虽然还没到正式的毕业典礼
但
我真的顺利毕业了

读了这么多年的
就这样一眨眼的毕业了

原本有点期待的毕业典礼
现在也有点失去意义了
付出给予我一切的
不能出席
有点失望
说要出席的却是不是自愿的
是因为某些事的说要来的

但愿只是我一时的邪念，
切记他们都是爱我和我爱的那一群人

发霉了～～

还就没上来了

不是不要

而是没时间

连睡觉的时间都剥夺了

何况是写部落

可是我现在也不应该在这里

但却有东西纠结

哎～～

考完试要一一解决了

考完了一张，

还有一张，

这将会是最后一张了～～

我是否因该好好享受最后为了考试读书的感觉

感觉好像考完试

就要面对一大堆难以解决的问题

路即将走到尽头

是时候选下一段要走的路

没有重选的机会

一切只有一次

决定权在自己手上

不管对或错

选了就是选了

自己负责

是时候面对现实啦！

那是被约束的自由吗？

虽然决定权在自己的的身上
但外来的因素
一句话
一个劝告
就能动摇一个人的想法

这决定有点难选择
这当中牵扯太多大大小小的人物
虽然对他们来说
可能没什么影响
但就可能决定了以后要走的路

不懂得怎么选
因为怕自己选错了
服从他人的建议
却不是自己很想要的

未来的路
是我的
我有责任决定
但
却好像没人和我站在同一线上
我犹豫了
毕业变成很恐怖
跨过了
可能是天堂
或地狱
有没有人可以告诉我

飞机虽然象征自由
但不能随意的飞
还是有被操丛的

So close yet so far

After back from my winter break
everything still haven't get back to the right track
I think I am playing too hard during the holiday
three week are not too long
but is not too short for a break

after a month
I went back to Sydney again
for a buddy surprising birthday celebration
this was planed a month ago
Feeling of keeping a known secret from a close person
was too suffer that everything
when you need to cover a small secret with another
like rolling a snow ball

Three day of short gathering was short for us
make us more emotional while leaving

Thanks both of them from bring us around again
although they quite busy at that weekend

Sydney just like my second place to hang out
sometime is not about the environment
is about who you be with
who with you
sweet and warm

night life in city

harbour bridge 

Birdcase street

Bondi beach

Harrican's Pork Rib Sydney 

Just love the time we gather together
always miss yous

Just a brief post..... more update soon

Lie and liar..........

recently I really fed up with this issue

I don't who to believe yet to trust

too much come in a same time 

I have difficulty in digest it

I cruel for me to analyse 

and 

judge who is right and who is wrong 

based on my personal opinion 

or someone opinion

I just don't understand that you(s) lying to me

Am I too stubborn or stupid believe in what others say 

This just making me hate this world and people 

I blur who is sincere to me 

and 

who is the one back-step me behind 

I can just follow my heart 

hopefully the one I trust doesn't 

letting me disappointed

or else I will super duper hate myself!!!! 

from believe in you................ 

REASON behind

Many people thought that
I love drinking alcohol
or they categorise me as alcoholic

but no one know the reason behind
or some might think this is my excuses

I love the feeling of getting high
but not too over
sometime I feel that when I get a little bit high
then only can see truly myself

one might lost their own indentity in life
lost the sincere side of their own

welcome back or find back the truly of yourself
once in awhile
might be a good way to
discover what you think

Life is too tired
to be every character that you should be
such as
be a student
be a daughter
be a citizen

one might carry a lot of character
soon after long time
we might lost our own character
what or which character should we be??

恐怖的世界

这世界还有坦诚的人吗？

我们生活表面的
看来完美
内心却烂透了
表面嘻嘻哈哈
背后可能被捅
也没人知道

人的真真假假
也许 我们控制不了
只能远离吧！

虽然
人常说
“人生如戏，戏如人生”
但
每天都在演戏
隐藏原来的自己
不累吗？？？？
或者他们想换来什么～
我真的不了解

算了
我不管了！！
做好我自己就好
别人要怎样
就怎样吧！
做回原来得自己～

偶尔一模
又傻言傻语了

Precious friends~~~

I thought that I am strong

and now i realise I'm not

there surely some people walking in and out in life

The thing that I hate the most is to say Bye

the feeling is just like heart broken when coming to that time

no matter how long we get to have fun together 

from the day we meet

we are friends

no matter we will meet again or not

thanks for being little part of my life

You may think that 

I treat friend too important in my life

Yes , I agree 

Friends are important to me

she graduated

a happy course mate

always helpful

and also my dessert mate

He just come for student exchange

open minded 

positive thinker 

yet Humour 

Thought this breaks 

met a new brunch of friends 

most of them are from INTI

i never met them on the street

 because of them New Zeland trips was awesome

Is worth although I spent quite big amount of money

Lastly 

I would like special thanks to both of this handsome and pretty

travel and bring me around Sydney

crazy with me 

drink with me

play with me

did something unusual with me

kind of memorable

make me feel warm though I not at somewhere familiar

Is always easy to say Hi
but
hard to say Bye
hope to see you guys and gals in future
all the best and take care

What a unique Birthday

I have a silent birthday this year

this might be the most memorable birthday of the year

I lost my voice on my birthday 

Not even a single sound

what ever wanna to say is hard to speak out

the feeling is kind of complicated

Unfortunate stuff happens on days before my birthday
people around me looks unhappy
make me feel helpless
Dont know how to react
other than putting a smile on my face

What a complicated July
hopefully everyone life get back to normal soon
life move on
as I always say

I always here to mentally support you guys and gals
although I not in counseling
but I am a good listener

At last
thanks for all the wishes from friends
thanks for still remember it
although is just a normal day

All the july Babies
First day meeting them
nice to meet yous

Day in Museum

只能说
我是个胆小鬼
只是逛博物院
却好像
博物院惊魂记

我承认
我怕黑啦
在灯光暗一点的地方
我就浑身不自在

这里的博物院
不是很大耶
我比较喜欢之前
在加拿大那个
（那个比较亮）哈哈

可是还有可看的东西
每个国家有它自己的特色嘛～～～

到底有几对翅膀

收到剩下骨？？

好帅的鸟

带着枪的海底警察？

他好像要出来

是我小看了它～～～～

我现在真的患上了
考试恐惧症

一直以来
大家都说
“在外国读书很轻松的啦！
随便读读，就能过关斩将！”
其实事实不是如此

那种恐怖
真的不是言语可以解说的
那压力
是有史以来最最最严重的
那期间
真的让你觉得
吃东西都是浪费时间

心理生理
都大大的影响了
嚎啕大哭
已经不是奇怪的事
手脚发抖
也只能硬着头
撑下去
自言自语
自己鼓励自己
还蛮可笑的
睡觉也是自己安慰自己
以为那是休息
但只是闭上眼睛
脑还是在不停的转

无意间
酒变成了
我的 energy drinks
喝了比较精神
变酒鬼了～～～

虽然过了
还是很紧张
没有很开心的感觉

虽然已经过去，
回想它也一事无补
还是不断的在想

只能说这是第一次，
但是这不该是借口，
是我小看它
没有彻彻底底的了解每一个重点

已经选好的路

要怎么走

自己决定

Amazing of FOOD

In this study break,

I just reliaze that eat 

Your own favorite food is so so so important

所谓人民以食为天

Every student need food also 

Other than study lunch and dinner time

Is the most happy time 

Kinda relax after ate 

Whatever pop up in my mind during studies

Korean style BBQ pork with kimchi

Black 糯米

Chicken rice 

Cream mushroom pasta

Fillet with cheese and nuggets

Yogurt with strawberry and almond

Sound like I having a food week than study week 

But food do cheer me up ....

although I have no chance to eat bak chang for this dumpling festival

与时间赛跑

很快的
又要考试了
学生最难捱的日子

两个星期的study break
因该是分秒必争
但是
我却吊儿郎当
左晃晃右晃晃
一直在担心读不完
但又专心不了
哈哈
那就是杨荔雯啦～
每次都是这样

在还没进入那最紧张的时刻前
放重一下下
这整个星期
都在
吃喝玩乐
样样都到齐

Play-Barossa Valley with Orientation friends

Drink-Wine tasting at Jacob's Creek

Joys

Joys-Extra ordinary photo of the day

Eat- Biochem Dinner
Last moment with those classmate of this semester
most of them graduating soon

Eat-Dinner with INTI senior
after the hectic presentation

是时候
好好专心的读书了
不读就无药可救了
加油～～～
考试万岁～～～

哪来的习惯？

不懂何时开始

我开始隐藏脸上的表情
不管开心，伤心，烦恼，生气
脸上还是若无其事

有个朋友说这是伪装
但我还是觉得
心情是我自己的问题
不必让人知道
就算让别人知道了
还是一样啊！

倒不如发泄在
日记上
部落里
等等～～

最近更无聊

自己给自己压力

压得我我疯疯癫癫
一切还在控制当中
但却让自己设定的due date
让自己紧张兮兮的

她们就是我的

心情解药

随便聊聊

心情都变好啦

～谢谢啦～

Not so AMAZING RACE

I am an Anti-social type
while in INTI
only active around people I knew~~~

but after coming to Adelaide
getting more and more active
is like unusual side of me~~
some of the activities is kinda fun~~~
exciting~~
interesting~~


This race was really "NOT SO" amazing
quite boring actually
but
finally walk to north Adelaide~~
should spent some time exploring the city~~

from the race
I explore it in different way
something that we not usually notice
such as those quote written on the statue
what the meaning of shield display on Adelaide bridge

How fun is an event
is depend on how much you enjoy it.........

we are team number two~~~

not so pro beetle cover

想家了？

朋友纷纷都考试完了

回家了

看着他们一个个的

post在脸书上 

还真的有点羡慕

只能看却吃不到

真的有点残忍耶

可是

我其实好像不是很想家

虽然我想念家里的每个人

但 我却好像

比较想念和家人一起吃过

的那些美食～～

那

我其实

想家呢？

还是

想食物呢？