那是被约束的自由吗？

虽然决定权在自己的的身上
但外来的因素
一句话
一个劝告
就能动摇一个人的想法

这决定有点难选择
这当中牵扯太多大大小小的人物
虽然对他们来说
可能没什么影响
但就可能决定了以后要走的路

不懂得怎么选
因为怕自己选错了
服从他人的建议
却不是自己很想要的

未来的路
是我的
我有责任决定
但
却好像没人和我站在同一线上
我犹豫了
毕业变成很恐怖
跨过了
可能是天堂
或地狱
有没有人可以告诉我

飞机虽然象征自由
但不能随意的飞
还是有被操丛的

So close yet so far

After back from my winter break
everything still haven't get back to the right track
I think I am playing too hard during the holiday
three week are not too long
but is not too short for a break

after a month
I went back to Sydney again
for a buddy surprising birthday celebration
this was planed a month ago
Feeling of keeping a known secret from a close person
was too suffer that everything
when you need to cover a small secret with another
like rolling a snow ball

Three day of short gathering was short for us
make us more emotional while leaving

Thanks both of them from bring us around again
although they quite busy at that weekend

Sydney just like my second place to hang out
sometime is not about the environment
is about who you be with
who with you
sweet and warm

night life in city

harbour bridge 

Birdcase street

Bondi beach

Harrican's Pork Rib Sydney 

Just love the time we gather together
always miss yous

Just a brief post..... more update soon

Lie and liar..........

recently I really fed up with this issue

I don't who to believe yet to trust

too much come in a same time 

I have difficulty in digest it

I cruel for me to analyse 

and 

judge who is right and who is wrong 

based on my personal opinion 

or someone opinion

I just don't understand that you(s) lying to me

Am I too stubborn or stupid believe in what others say 

This just making me hate this world and people 

I blur who is sincere to me 

and 

who is the one back-step me behind 

I can just follow my heart 

hopefully the one I trust doesn't 

letting me disappointed

or else I will super duper hate myself!!!! 

from believe in you................ 

REASON behind

Many people thought that
I love drinking alcohol
or they categorise me as alcoholic

but no one know the reason behind
or some might think this is my excuses

I love the feeling of getting high
but not too over
sometime I feel that when I get a little bit high
then only can see truly myself

one might lost their own indentity in life
lost the sincere side of their own

welcome back or find back the truly of yourself
once in awhile
might be a good way to
discover what you think

Life is too tired
to be every character that you should be
such as
be a student
be a daughter
be a citizen

one might carry a lot of character
soon after long time
we might lost our own character
what or which character should we be??

恐怖的世界

这世界还有坦诚的人吗？

我们生活表面的
看来完美
内心却烂透了
表面嘻嘻哈哈
背后可能被捅
也没人知道

人的真真假假
也许 我们控制不了
只能远离吧！

虽然
人常说
“人生如戏，戏如人生”
但
每天都在演戏
隐藏原来的自己
不累吗？？？？
或者他们想换来什么～
我真的不了解

算了
我不管了！！
做好我自己就好
别人要怎样
就怎样吧！
做回原来得自己～

偶尔一模
又傻言傻语了

Precious friends~~~

I thought that I am strong

and now i realise I'm not

there surely some people walking in and out in life

The thing that I hate the most is to say Bye

the feeling is just like heart broken when coming to that time

no matter how long we get to have fun together 

from the day we meet

we are friends

no matter we will meet again or not

thanks for being little part of my life

You may think that 

I treat friend too important in my life

Yes , I agree 

Friends are important to me

she graduated

a happy course mate

always helpful

and also my dessert mate

He just come for student exchange

open minded 

positive thinker 

yet Humour 

Thought this breaks 

met a new brunch of friends 

most of them are from INTI

i never met them on the street

 because of them New Zeland trips was awesome

Is worth although I spent quite big amount of money

Lastly 

I would like special thanks to both of this handsome and pretty

travel and bring me around Sydney

crazy with me 

drink with me

play with me

did something unusual with me

kind of memorable

make me feel warm though I not at somewhere familiar

Is always easy to say Hi
but
hard to say Bye
hope to see you guys and gals in future
all the best and take care

What a unique Birthday

I have a silent birthday this year

this might be the most memorable birthday of the year

I lost my voice on my birthday 

Not even a single sound

what ever wanna to say is hard to speak out

the feeling is kind of complicated

Unfortunate stuff happens on days before my birthday
people around me looks unhappy
make me feel helpless
Dont know how to react
other than putting a smile on my face

What a complicated July
hopefully everyone life get back to normal soon
life move on
as I always say

I always here to mentally support you guys and gals
although I not in counseling
but I am a good listener

At last
thanks for all the wishes from friends
thanks for still remember it
although is just a normal day

All the july Babies
First day meeting them
nice to meet yous