Am I doing the right thing??

I start to wonder
am I doing the right thing

I decide not to back hometown
and staying in Adelaide
for
"unimportant stuff
or something unrelated to my future"

Family member may said I should doing something
more precious
but
I am Happy with my life now
free and easy yet relax

Although
is a bit tired after whole day of standing
but
I get something that make me happier
from it

Is another feeling of successful
although is nothing related
but I experience something others
that might not get from the official work

I getting more in love to Adelaide
how am I gonna leave this lovely city
and also the beloved friends over here.....
they accompany the every lonely time of mine
the happiest in working on every stuff

我终于毕业了

虽然还没到正式的毕业典礼
但
我真的顺利毕业了

读了这么多年的
就这样一眨眼的毕业了

原本有点期待的毕业典礼
现在也有点失去意义了
付出给予我一切的
不能出席
有点失望
说要出席的却是不是自愿的
是因为某些事的说要来的

但愿只是我一时的邪念，
切记他们都是爱我和我爱的那一群人

发霉了～～

还就没上来了

不是不要

而是没时间

连睡觉的时间都剥夺了

何况是写部落

可是我现在也不应该在这里

但却有东西纠结

哎～～

考完试要一一解决了

考完了一张，

还有一张，

这将会是最后一张了～～

我是否因该好好享受最后为了考试读书的感觉

感觉好像考完试

就要面对一大堆难以解决的问题

路即将走到尽头

是时候选下一段要走的路

没有重选的机会

一切只有一次

决定权在自己手上

不管对或错

选了就是选了

自己负责

是时候面对现实啦！

那是被约束的自由吗？

虽然决定权在自己的的身上
但外来的因素
一句话
一个劝告
就能动摇一个人的想法

这决定有点难选择
这当中牵扯太多大大小小的人物
虽然对他们来说
可能没什么影响
但就可能决定了以后要走的路

不懂得怎么选
因为怕自己选错了
服从他人的建议
却不是自己很想要的

未来的路
是我的
我有责任决定
但
却好像没人和我站在同一线上
我犹豫了
毕业变成很恐怖
跨过了
可能是天堂
或地狱
有没有人可以告诉我

飞机虽然象征自由
但不能随意的飞
还是有被操丛的

So close yet so far

After back from my winter break
everything still haven't get back to the right track
I think I am playing too hard during the holiday
three week are not too long
but is not too short for a break

after a month
I went back to Sydney again
for a buddy surprising birthday celebration
this was planed a month ago
Feeling of keeping a known secret from a close person
was too suffer that everything
when you need to cover a small secret with another
like rolling a snow ball

Three day of short gathering was short for us
make us more emotional while leaving

Thanks both of them from bring us around again
although they quite busy at that weekend

Sydney just like my second place to hang out
sometime is not about the environment
is about who you be with
who with you
sweet and warm

night life in city

harbour bridge 

Birdcase street

Bondi beach

Harrican's Pork Rib Sydney 

Just love the time we gather together
always miss yous

Just a brief post..... more update soon

Lie and liar..........

recently I really fed up with this issue

I don't who to believe yet to trust

too much come in a same time 

I have difficulty in digest it

I cruel for me to analyse 

and 

judge who is right and who is wrong 

based on my personal opinion 

or someone opinion

I just don't understand that you(s) lying to me

Am I too stubborn or stupid believe in what others say 

This just making me hate this world and people 

I blur who is sincere to me 

and 

who is the one back-step me behind 

I can just follow my heart 

hopefully the one I trust doesn't 

letting me disappointed

or else I will super duper hate myself!!!! 

from believe in you................ 

REASON behind

Many people thought that
I love drinking alcohol
or they categorise me as alcoholic

but no one know the reason behind
or some might think this is my excuses

I love the feeling of getting high
but not too over
sometime I feel that when I get a little bit high
then only can see truly myself

one might lost their own indentity in life
lost the sincere side of their own

welcome back or find back the truly of yourself
once in awhile
might be a good way to
discover what you think

Life is too tired
to be every character that you should be
such as
be a student
be a daughter
be a citizen

one might carry a lot of character
soon after long time
we might lost our own character
what or which character should we be??